Here’s another song that strongly speaks my mind. This one is by Adele and this song expresses the doubts that I have.

Chasing Pavements lyrics
Songwriters: Adkins, Adele; White, Francis Eg;

I’ve made up my mind, don’t need to think it over
If I’m wrong I am right, don’t need to look no further
This ain’t lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I’ll never say enough
‘Cause it was not said to you
And that’s exactly what I need to do if I’d end up with you

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing pavements
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

The biggest question that looms over my head right now is repeatedly mentioned in this song over and over, ‘Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements?’. If you are asking why I have this question, I suggest you read the previous entries. Although I doubt that anyone would actually read this blog. I doubt that anyone is following my blog anywaw.

What really makes me second guess myself and my efforts is the fact that I don’t feel that Trisha will ever reciprocate how I feel. I doubt that she even gives a damn about it.

To be honest, I don’t think the dynamics of our relationship would ever change. She will forever be Trisha and I will forever be just her guest. As long as she doesn’t treat me like a normal suitor, I could never lose these doubts that I have. As long as she never introduce me and allow me to get to know the Princess behind the Trisha persona, I will never feel like I even have a chance.

So back to the question, Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements… even if it leads nowhere?